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A Post From Anon

November 2nd, 2009 · 15 Comments

As part of our relationship, I have my boy writing a blog for me, which is private and locked. Only he and I can read it. (I am such an internet girlfriend) He writes for me every day about his work progress, his day, and anything like that. We live in different cities so its a nice touchstone to have.  As well as posts that he crafts, I have him write me assignments.

Of course I bring blogging into my dominance. What else would I do?

This is a re-post, posted with permission, of one of Anon’s daily posts to me.

FYI – He has not had an orgasm since 10/18, though he did have one nocturnal emission. Heh. By the time you read this, I may have let him come. Or not. :)

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I woke up out of an erotic dream. I had been fantasizing about feminization. The thoughts of being dressed up all fem stirred within me as I sprawled naked on the sheets, my only article of decency being your collar around my neck. My early morning mind flitted between friends who are into feminization and my hand drifted up to my neck. As I held your collar I realized I had changed. Two months I would not have hesitated to set up a play date with a friend, now that thought scarcely occurred to me. Why? What caused the change?

The answer of course was simple, I was your property and you determine where, how, and with whom I play. I felt a familiar swelling below the sheets as the reality sank in. I reached to touch your cock and withdrew my hand, it was not mine to touch any more, it was yours… you even controlled how and if I can use my body. I needed some small avenue of relief and texted you “good morning” asking for permission to touch myself.  I waited in the sheets and tried not to notice the building pressure between my legs.

I waited and seconds stretched painfully on… blood pumped into your cock

I waited and the minutes became agony… thinking became difficult

I waited and the time became insufferable… I wanted only you!!!

Furious to escape my torment I went online and tried to distract myself by reading one of Maymay’s blogs, unfortunately I failed.  The blog I opened to had a cartoon picture of a woman fucking a guy with a strap on. Just looking at the image made your cock swell even more and I would have given anything in that moment to be the cartoon guy. I tried shifting my attention to the words on the screen but every time the letters s.e.x. appeared on the page, I grew horribly distracted.

I stopped torturing myself with the blog and made a few tweets but again, no relief.  Finally you texted me with permission to touch myself but by then it was too late, I was frustrated, horny and confused. We texted back and forth.  I fell into my familiar game of whining and whimpering, eager to make you suffer through the angst that was riding me. I asked you what I was supposed to do in such an intense and excited state and your response brought my world to a stop.  I was immediately filled with consideration, respect and awe.

“Fear me. Love me. Do as I say and suffer through it.”

I set the phone down slowly. You had beaten me. I could feel your hand squeeze your balls, forcing me to my knees as I surrendered to you. Game over, I was yours. You had silenced my calculated whining with a few simple words and left me no other options but to submit.

The irony was you were busy getting ready for school and had no idea how 300 miles away you had blown my world. No one has ever humbled me like you did today and I absolutely loved you for it.

I am so grateful to have you Wendy. I love you so much Mistress Wendy, thank you.

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15 responses so far ↓

  • 1 Miss Lyss // Nov 3, 2009 at 12:35 am

    Oooh… I want one now after reading that.

  • 2 Curvaceous Dee // Nov 3, 2009 at 4:39 am

    Wow – that just blows my mind. Those words are powerful indeed.

    xx Dee

  • 3 Curvaceous Dee // Nov 4, 2009 at 5:11 am

    As an aside, Wendy – I’ve given you the ‘You Are a Great Read’ award. Read all about it here.

    xx Dee

  • 5 The Black Russian // Nov 11, 2009 at 3:37 am

    Your love is so achingly romantic and you are both great writers.

  • 6 maymay // Nov 15, 2009 at 3:15 am

    Furious to escape my torment I went online and tried to distract myself by reading one of Maymay’s blogs, unfortunately I failed. The blog I opened to had a cartoon picture of a woman fucking a guy with a strap on.

    That would probably be the post called Strap-on Vanila Sex and Emotions in D/s Sex .

    FWIW, I also do the thing where I try to distract myself from sexual thoughts during periods of denial by going to read someone else’s blog, which frequently turns out to be a Bad Idea because rather than distracting me I just use whatever I find as more mental (if not physical) masturbation fodder. Ah well.

    Tangentially related, why is your partner referring to the genitals attached to his body as “yours”? I mean…I get it and all…fantasy of being property and stuff. I know a lot of chastity fetishists talk this way. But was there some conscious thought about this on your part, or are you guys mimicking what you see elsewhere? (Not that there’s too much particularly tragically wrong about that….)

  • 7 Wendy Blackheart // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:05 pm

    It relates to the idea of ownership in our play; that I own and have control over all of him, particularly the use, or lack thereof, of his genitals – he has to ask for permission to use them. We both think of them as mine, though for me, its more of an abstract thought – they are mine in that, at that time, I control them, and can do what I want with them, in the context of the fantasy play.

    Outside of head space, I think of them as his. Sometimes when we’re being cute, we’ve called them ‘our balls’.

    For me, (and I can only speak for myself, though I’m sure Anon will comment on this later), I’m not imitating what I see, as I generally don’t seek out much femdom D/s porn, as it doesn’t do anything for me. However, for whatever reason, this part of the fantasy jives with me, so I run with it. :) Ownership is a pretty hot idea for me – more than once I’ve bitten Anon, or grabbed his balls and squeezed while growling ‘mine’. Because he is; he belongs to me, just as much as I belong to him.

    (Though if you want to talk about imitation…I *may* have read Anne Bishops ‘Black Jewel’ books entirely too many times. :)

  • 8 maymay // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:08 pm

    While in head space, do you also refer to Anon’s other body parts as yours? E.g., referring to a request/command to be fingered, “I want my hands inside me.”

    Why or why not?

    And thanks for indulging my curiosity. :)

  • 9 Curvaceous Dee // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:12 pm

    (Mmm, the Black Jewels books. NOM.)

    xx Dee

  • 10 Wendy Blackheart // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:20 pm

    Generally no; but then again, when I actually ask to be fingered, I’m usually all ready either using a hitachi or receiving oral, so generally I just say ‘Fingers!’ and give directions from there. Mostly, because I’m kind of distracted by trying to have an orgasm. (Which, after five years of fucking, is still hard for me to do when there is another person in the room. Go figure.)

    And while I think of myself as owning him, and all of him and his body, that tends to focus on his cock and balls. This didn’t really come into sharp focus until we started the denial play, because suddenly I had all this control over a particular part of his body and his sexuality. I don’t control what he can do with his hands, I don’t tell him what shoes to wear, and I don’t tell him what he can and can’t eat, but I do have all this power over his cock and balls and his use of them. (In fact, when we’re in head space and we’re together, he even asks if he can use the bathroom. So its not just one function of his cock, but all of them). Since I don’t exercise the same control over his other body parts, I don’t think of them as mine in quite the same way.

  • 11 Wendy Blackheart // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:21 pm

    @Dee – Mmm indeed! Have you read any of the BJ books outside of the trilogy? I’m sooo hooked on them!

    Though oddly enough, I don’t care for her other works. I didn’t like the Ephemera Duology, and the fairy books were totally meh.

  • 12 Curvaceous Dee // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:32 pm

    Yes I have – I particularly like the collection of three short stories within the ‘verse (Dreams Made Flesh). I’m not so hot on some of her other stuff either, but did quite enjoy the Tir Aillan trilogy – easy reading.

    xx Dee

  • 13 Wendy Blackheart // Nov 15, 2009 at 6:48 pm

    I’m loving the latest novel, about the Queen who goes to Tereille to help bring back the old ways – her newest novel is about her again, which I’m looking forward to. Its nice to read about some of the more ‘normal’ Blood.

  • 14 ANoN // Nov 15, 2009 at 8:39 pm

    Wendy wrote:
    “so don’t tell him what shoes to wear, and I don’t tell him what he can and can’t eat”

    You don’t, do you dear? So when you said “No one gets to dress you but me” were you being where you being strictly metaphorical? Hmmmmmmmm ;)

    yes I think it is very sexy that you own my balls and control the actions of your cock, nothing puts me into head space like some good old school domination talk.

  • 15 ANoN // Nov 15, 2009 at 8:43 pm

    @ maymay

    Methinks you might be over thinking the fantasy of it a bit. Sure she could say she “owns my earlobe and my big toe” but it probably is not as sexy or hot. Most of the fantasy just rolls at the moment our of pure emotional feeling the less time spent analyzing it the better.

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